Things aren't going quite as well as I wish they were. And of course, I'm not blogging as much as I need to so I don't even remember what I wrote last. So let's just go with whatever spew comes from my brain.
The living situation? Not going so well at all. I knew from the get-go that I'd probably have problems getting along all the time with at least one of my roommates. But now? It's turned into this really nasty situation. Two of my roommates down right dislike me. I admit, I can be passive aggressive and not the easiest person to live with. But, honestly, I have tried really hard, and I have definitely changed some of my ways. And yet, things continue to get worse. It's gotten to the point where I'm trying to get out of the lease and move. This, ultimately, will mean paying more money for rent, not to mention the moving process and changing my address on everything. But, this living situation is giving me so much anxiety, that I don't even want to come home after work, and when I'm at work, my stomach is in knots thinking about it. So moving? I think it's the best bet.
But then I have the problem of my roommates not making the moving easy. They want me gone, I want me gone. But they refuse to help get me gone. And right now, I can't move forward without their help. I'm not going to get into all the sticky details about my relationship with them, nor this situation. Suffice it to say that I'm trying really hard to leave, and I hope that they'll come around and help me out for this one thing, since it seems it'll be in the better interest of all involved.
Frankly, the conflict I am having is that I don't want to sign a new lease until I know for sure 100% that I'm legally off the old lease. But I also don't want to string my potential new roommates along, last minute duck out because things fell through here, and thus screw them over. They are being very patient and I love them both for it. I just don't want to get stuck on two leases, and then be financially obligated to pay both.
Moving on, we have the job situation. I love my job now. The people are great, the location is great. Everything is great. Unfortunately, it's an internship, and internships don't last forever. So I have less than two months to find a new job. I am, of course, looking to see what Disney has to offer. So I started the process a while ago. I've been meeting with my leaders, and I've also met with some leaders from other areas to see if I'd like their areas. During these meetings, I've also been seeing what it might take to get to those areas, as well as those leaders' recommendations. I had a pretty good plan: Concierge seemed like a great bet. It's paid a little more, it's a little more challenging, it had potential to grow, etc. Sounded great.
So today, I go to casting. In this meeting, I put my preferences down. Full-time. Concierge (or front desk). Location does not matter. Then I sit down with the recruiter. The first thing he says is "you're crazy" and laughs..... Just kidding! But reading between his lines, that is what he was thinking. Because I'm only an intern, I have no seniority. And because I have no seniority, I would have to wait at least a year and a half to even be considered for a concierge or front desk job. So there goes that idea. We spent the rest of the meeting going through job postings that I could get now without putting my name on a list. Jobs that were open now, or would be open around the time my internship ends. Not very good choices. The only full time things open were things like dishwasher. I'm sorry, if I want to wash dishes, I'll go back to IL. So no-go on the full time.
Okay, let's look at part time. As soon as I get in as part time, I can put in for full time and hopefully go from there. It's not ideal, especially financially. But it's a start. As my recruiter stated, sometimes you have to take two steps back before you can go forward. So here are my options. I can end my internship (with 40 hours a week, 11.25 an hour) three weeks early to be a slide operator at a water park (again, part time, and at 7.95 an hour). I can end my internship on time, and then work quick service food and beverage (for a similar wage). Or I could (and this is a long shot as there is a secondary interview with this one) be a Monorail driver.
I admit, being a monorail driver would be cool! But I don't know if it's really what I want. Lower guest interaction, not sure how many hours I could pick up. And quick service food and beverage? Food and beverage really isn't my thing. So, slide operator. Okay, I'll take it. I'm not happy about leaving my internship early. But, right now, it seems like the best plan. And hopefully after I start there, I will put in for full time and get it soon after. Which would mean I would transfer again to who knows where. But it's something.
I told all of this to my manager. My recruiter is waiting on an email from my manager about letting me go early. We have until Friday at noon to tell him. My manager is holding off sending that email. She and a few of the other managers are going to put in a few calls, and see what else might be out there. See if anything was missed, or if they can pull some strings. I honestly love my managers. They really do care about my future and want me to succeed. When I told them about the casting meeting, they responded saying that they would like to at least see me in a full-time role. That would be lovely.
So those are the things stressing me out right now. And they are big stressors. I'm also stressing about missing home. Frankly, although I'm a sentimental guy, I've always been good with being away from home. College did not bother me. And last internship (August-January) did not bother me. But all of a sudden, these past few months, being away from home has been really hard on me.
But enough of the downers. There are good things in my life too. I have awesome support at work. I've made so many good friends this semester (and last semester). I've had several visits from several family members and college friends. It's a blast when somebody from home comes down, and I get to share Walt Disney World with them. For them, it's a vacation, for me, it's my life! At least right now. And it really is a great experience, not to mention a lot of fun!
But most importantly, let's talk about the one thing in my life that I am most excited about. And most thankful for. No matter what happens, I have an amazing boyfriend who I love very much. I don't know if I could get through all of this without him. Honestly, there are some days where I really don't know how I make it through. But then there he is, with a text, or a call, or something. Making me smile. Giving me support. Putting some perspective in my life. We've come a long way in a short amount of time. This relationship was unexpected. I wasn't even looking for a relationship. And all of a sudden I turn around, and here's this wonderful man in my life. And I couldn't imagine it any other way.
